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sweh ([personal profile] sweh) wrote2003-07-14 12:58 pm

Explanation

Apparently a few people were concerned about my "arsehole" entry. So an explanation (of sorts)

On Friday 4th I felt I had messed up badly and broken an oath I made to Tori. Only slightly (more a fracture than a break), but nevertheless... I take my oaths seriously and so was extremely pissed off on Saturday with myself. Sunday, Monday, Tuesday... on Wednesday I felt so bad about it that I wrote in my diary what I had done, why I was feeling like that. And my conclusion was that I was an arsehole.

Thursday evening I went out with Tori to talk about this. A couple of things were said which rang vague bells. Not enough to necessarily alter my analysis and conclusions, but enough to get me to rethink it. Ajustments may happen over time.

But there you have it; I broke an oath and felt terrible about it and disgusted with myself.