Mood wibble
Dec. 9th, 2002 01:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
swehI wonder if yesterday was a bit of "subbie drop" ? Haven't heard that term for quite a while, but it may explain things...
Fun Friday night with Tori (department Christmas thang, which I brought her along to, then back to my place), an extremely surprising and unexpected ultra-passive non-verbal scene on Saturday (which worried me that Tori may not have been enjoying herself as much as when I do struggle and moan), and on Sunday when I was getting ready to head into Jersey to meet Tori again I suddenly felt very depressed and very pissed off and very angry with myself. I was shaving off the beginnings of side burns and shaved too far up and got some real hair and I was pissed. Was in a bad mood for hours.
Subbie drop? Hmm... perhaps. I'm just glad I didn't shave off all my hair in anger :-)
What was more interesting though, was later at dinner... I tried to interact with people and be fun and friendly, but could feel the darkness lurking below me, threatening to pull me down if I let it. Unusual feeling; it seemed like a dark black sea that I was flying above, barely skimming over the surface; luring me in threatening to drag me down into it's depths.
By bed time it had mostly evaporated so by the time I splashed down there was very little left. All gone by morning!
Fun Friday night with Tori (department Christmas thang, which I brought her along to, then back to my place), an extremely surprising and unexpected ultra-passive non-verbal scene on Saturday (which worried me that Tori may not have been enjoying herself as much as when I do struggle and moan), and on Sunday when I was getting ready to head into Jersey to meet Tori again I suddenly felt very depressed and very pissed off and very angry with myself. I was shaving off the beginnings of side burns and shaved too far up and got some real hair and I was pissed. Was in a bad mood for hours.
Subbie drop? Hmm... perhaps. I'm just glad I didn't shave off all my hair in anger :-)
What was more interesting though, was later at dinner... I tried to interact with people and be fun and friendly, but could feel the darkness lurking below me, threatening to pull me down if I let it. Unusual feeling; it seemed like a dark black sea that I was flying above, barely skimming over the surface; luring me in threatening to drag me down into it's depths.
By bed time it had mostly evaporated so by the time I splashed down there was very little left. All gone by morning!
