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The end of the world.
Nov. 22nd, 2002 03:42 pmHow strange... I look at a number of people's journals, I read threads on Usenet and on mailing lists...
People all around seem to be getting stressed out and angry and bitchy. The good people notice this and hate it and try to stop it and get depressed and upset with themselves for doing this. The rest just seem to escalate.
Initially I thought this was just the rest of the world getting online and bringing their neurosis with them; that the techies who had been before were more savvy and balanced. Then I read flame wars and clueful people telling each other to fuck off and I realise this isn't the case.
The whole world seems to be getting angrier. This, to me, seems to be the true sign of the apocalypse.
I spent the early part of this week feeling utterly depressed and pissed off and hating myself for all my failings and wanting to find a dark hole to hide in. Got over it on Wednesday evening, but my diary for that period is full of darkness and self-loathing. I'm sure I never used to suffer from these feelings. Why do I now?
It's almost enough to make me start believing in conspiracy theories... which one to choose? CIA mind control satellites? Alien invaders beaming signals at us? Side effect of all this broadcast EM radiation and power lines and stuff? Satanic influence to bring around the end of the world? OK, maybe not...
Maybe the world has always been this way and it's only now that I've opened my eyes and noticed it. Somehow I don't feel like spawning a child into this world, though! Wouldn't be fair on it.
People all around seem to be getting stressed out and angry and bitchy. The good people notice this and hate it and try to stop it and get depressed and upset with themselves for doing this. The rest just seem to escalate.
Initially I thought this was just the rest of the world getting online and bringing their neurosis with them; that the techies who had been before were more savvy and balanced. Then I read flame wars and clueful people telling each other to fuck off and I realise this isn't the case.
The whole world seems to be getting angrier. This, to me, seems to be the true sign of the apocalypse.
I spent the early part of this week feeling utterly depressed and pissed off and hating myself for all my failings and wanting to find a dark hole to hide in. Got over it on Wednesday evening, but my diary for that period is full of darkness and self-loathing. I'm sure I never used to suffer from these feelings. Why do I now?
It's almost enough to make me start believing in conspiracy theories... which one to choose? CIA mind control satellites? Alien invaders beaming signals at us? Side effect of all this broadcast EM radiation and power lines and stuff? Satanic influence to bring around the end of the world? OK, maybe not...
Maybe the world has always been this way and it's only now that I've opened my eyes and noticed it. Somehow I don't feel like spawning a child into this world, though! Wouldn't be fair on it.
