What have I done with my life?
Sep. 27th, 2005 04:18 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
swehI'm soon going to click over another year on that counter... I'll be 37 in 2 weeks time. By that time my Dad was steadily married (not sure how many years; over 15, I guess) had two children (me; 7 years old and my brother; 5 years old), was earning pretty good money (considering he started as a butchers assistant!) and so on.
What I have got to show for myself? Other than money (I earn a good wage, own a house in Elm Park, London, England and one in Fair Lawn, NJ, USA)... what have I got to show for myself? I'm a nothing person in a nothing job, going nowhere, acting like a twenty-something. No settled life, no real prospects, living in the shadow of other people. My personal life is never going to go anywhere because I fell in love with someone who's already taken. My job life is going nowhere as long as I'm in the US without a green card.
I've not achieved anything, not made any mark, not done anything that I'll be remembered for.
*sigh*
What I have got to show for myself? Other than money (I earn a good wage, own a house in Elm Park, London, England and one in Fair Lawn, NJ, USA)... what have I got to show for myself? I'm a nothing person in a nothing job, going nowhere, acting like a twenty-something. No settled life, no real prospects, living in the shadow of other people. My personal life is never going to go anywhere because I fell in love with someone who's already taken. My job life is going nowhere as long as I'm in the US without a green card.
I've not achieved anything, not made any mark, not done anything that I'll be remembered for.
*sigh*
