I dunno, sometimes

[sweh]

Sometimes I wonder if it's worth the effort. You see people you love in pain. You see people you like in trouble. You see people you work with in need. You try to help them. And it never seems to be enough; those in pain are still in pain; those in trouble get more trouble; those at work always need more. I dunno why I try when there's no apparent result. Especially when I really need to take care of my own shit.

I'm not like Tori, who has 10 times the heart and goodness that I have.

Maybe I'll just give up. Leave and go elsewhere. Become a hermit.

Oh I don't know. Maybe I am helping people. Maybe they'd be worse off if I hadn't done whatever I did. I dunno.